Last year, october/november, my health had gotten to the point where all I had energy to do was lay on the sofa. I slept most of the days, and I felt too horrible to describe… I couldn’t do anything, I needed help with pretty much everything…
About a week before christmas, I started to feel something positive. I couldn’t put my finger on it, but something was feeling pretty good.
I noticed that I could eat normal portions (my kind of “POTS normal”, not actual normal) again, and I was hopeful that I would be able to have a nice christmas. And it was lovely!
After christmas, I was in the right mindset. After spending all of november and december really wanting to do everything I could for my health (things had gone bad at this point, but how could they not considering the state I was in?).
I started a YouTube channel about a healthy lifestyle, but didn’t feel it was my thing, my blog was/is more me ❤
I had made my plans, notebooks everywhere, and I was ready! On the 1st of the new year I would start!
So the 1st came. And I did it. Good bye bad things, hello good things!
On the 3d or 4th I realized that I wasn’t sleeping all day, every day, and that I hadn’t for about a week or maybe even 1,5 week. I was even sitting up most of the time. I had energy!
It was obviously not from the changes I had just made, but I couldn’t figure out what was happening.
On the 6th, I realized I was walking without getting a heart rate of about 200. My blood pressure wasn’t a disaster (other than how bad it normally is). I could breathe!! I could walk around without collapsing! I didn’t understand anything, but I knew I hadn’t felt this good since… autumn of 2014… 5,5 years!
Then it hit me, my thyroid medication! I was losing weight too, and I realized it was the medication that was finally doing its job.
And just as I understood that, there was the second realization… my wheelchair would no longer be needed! I would be able to start walking again!
On the 7th, my mum called and told me she had taken a pretty bad fall in a store and was waiting for an ambulance. My dad went to the store to get her things and I went to the hospital to meet my mum. But I don’t like going on the bus alone with my wheelchair because people can be so horrible to me… wait… was I already well enough to walk to the bus?
I did it. I took my cane, a lovely black one with flowers, and walked to the bus!
And it went just fine! I have not been able to walk more than 10 or so steps in just over 1,5 years, and now I just walked and walked! I can’t describe the joy and I wish so much that I had taken a photo of me because that smile must have been the biggest anyone has ever had!
My mum almost passed out when she saw me standing in the doorway to the room she had been put in. Thank goodness she was sitting because all that morphine would have made her fall over otherwise!
It turns out her left arm was broken in 3 places, and there was a lot of walking back and forth to get x-rays and such, but I made it!
I have been walking from tuesday until saturday, then I needed to rest today. I haven’t walked for 1,5 years so my body is far from used to it. I am so, so, so sore! Everytime I walk, I feel like I’ve been doing a really hard workout at the gym after.
I can walk about 20 minutes, then I have to sit down. I have done so twice now, and the second time was a bit easier than the first, obviously.
I’m taking it easy and try not to push myself too much, because I don’t want to make myself worse again or injure myself.
So this is how my 2020 started, and I am ok with it 😉
I will continue to write about my health and my life, and with a lot more energy and a brain that is actually working, it will be a lot easier than it was last year!
But so far, today is the 12th, and I have been doing really well for all 12 days!
I will give a much better update tomorrow about what is happening and what my plan is.
Keep looking up ❤