using my brain

Losing weight is easy. So how can it be hard at the same time?

Is it my fear of failing that is keeping me back? I did great today. I did everything just as I planned to. So why can’t I feel good about it? About myself?

“What if I do bad tomorrow?” That’s what’s on my mind right now. What if I can’t keep this up for more than a day? I haven’t before. True, I haven’t before. But I also didn’t think about what I was doing then. I just threw myself in to it, made a plan in a notebook and never opened the notebook again after failing day 3. But this time I am aware of that. I am aware of what I did wrong and what I need to do to change.
I need to stay aware. If I keep journaling/blogging about how I’m doing, how I’m feeling, then it will always stay releveant in my head. Todays I was thinking about what to write about when sitting here. I mean, I actually thought about my feelings. I never do that unless it’s a bad feeling or two.

So maybe this time I will do great? Yeah, I think I will.
If I treat every day like today, I will do great! During the day I was thinking about “well, do I want to write that I did this so called “bad” thing?” and no, no I did not.
So here I am, letting you know that I did great! I ate well, not too much, not too little. I didn’t drink a bunch of extra calories. I didn’t fall for that dang chocolate in the store. I didn’t go back to the store whan I had a nasty craving for something, anything, sweet. It went away on its own 🙂 (And mind you, I live right next to the store too!)

I feel like this post was all over the place, but this is my brain at the moment. This is what’s in it.

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